I am ghost..

Day in Day out...
people see what they wanna see..
hear what they wanna hear..
Do what they wanna do..
but hardly anyone says what they really wanna say.

I glide around the corridoors.. hearing people mumbling..
and when they're asked to repeat? they say.. "nothing"..
whast the use of being there... whats the use of hanging around..
when your pressence mean so little to everyone else..
no one listens when you talk.. no one talks much to you..

Wallowing in their own world shutting everyone out.
When crunch time arrives.. people huddle together in physical comfort..
meantally? emotionally? no one really knows what goes on...
because of all our inability to express ourselves...
our inability to even open up to the simple people in life we call friends...
The people whom you think are shutting you out...
maybe when it's actually vice versa..

who am I to say...
I have difficulties expressing my thoughts all the time
with a fear of being judged. sometimes being laughed at.
maybe this is how it works in my mind..
maybe i am conditioned to be the one giving..
and never taking.. it's tiring...
but I also know... I am not the only one who feels that way.
no shite right?

who i am

now i understand who i really am.. pls.. dont try to spite me.. bub smells funny.. is my own.. it is what i own.. dont u dare try to understand wat it means.. because my so called close friends you are all.. trying to understand what u shouldnt.. i am a lost soul that should not be found.. i thought i was my brother.. but i am not.. i am myself something that is as low as dirt... stepped on.. to clean ur shoes i am a door mat.. i have been cheated.. i am a clown.. to make u all happy.. i understand this now.. dont try to make me change it.. i guesss the way in life is the oldest holds a key understanding that the oldest holds it and the youngest gets stepped on.. soo.. pls dont call me.. or try to contacted me.. i dont want to speak to anyone.. i'm all alone is the world called home.. my parents are the only one that comfort me in all the troubles although in the past they have not.. u neglect to understand that i am a human being i do feel .. i do taste , hear and see.. i do have a heart i do go out of my way to promise a hope for u ungratful shyts taht i would make u happy but u treat me like a clown and for that for u i am one.. but for others.. i am brian! so go to hell i dont want to see or hear from u guys ever again..

chivasxomartellbeer

Been drinking non stop for about 2 weeks now.. EVERY SINGLE DAY.....
maybe sometimes... staying high is staying alive..
being sober.. you realize.. the world isn't half as happy as it is..

maybe i should start drinking again... like now? haha..

anyway it's been one hellova great time...

love-k

This is it?

why have a girl friend.. dats takes wat u say lightly... doesnt care if u call.. doesnt message u.. doesnt make an effort to make convo or even hear ur voice.. i am not too sure.. why.. Arghh.. i'm starting to think my life is actually going down the shitter with everyone else around me.. this is sooo not me.. wait it is.. i am not sure.. is this really.. how it is surpose to be? i dont know .. why dont u tell me! explain to me in a million and one.. word essay.. include a intro / body and conlcusion.. and u might get a prize of a big FUK U! hahaha.. watever.. CLICK BOOM>>>>> DEAD wat ever...