who i am

now i understand who i really am.. pls.. dont try to spite me.. bub smells funny.. is my own.. it is what i own.. dont u dare try to understand wat it means.. because my so called close friends you are all.. trying to understand what u shouldnt.. i am a lost soul that should not be found.. i thought i was my brother.. but i am not.. i am myself something that is as low as dirt... stepped on.. to clean ur shoes i am a door mat.. i have been cheated.. i am a clown.. to make u all happy.. i understand this now.. dont try to make me change it.. i guesss the way in life is the oldest holds a key understanding that the oldest holds it and the youngest gets stepped on.. soo.. pls dont call me.. or try to contacted me.. i dont want to speak to anyone.. i'm all alone is the world called home.. my parents are the only one that comfort me in all the troubles although in the past they have not.. u neglect to understand that i am a human being i do feel .. i do taste , hear and see.. i do have a heart i do go out of my way to promise a hope for u ungratful shyts taht i would make u happy but u treat me like a clown and for that for u i am one.. but for others.. i am brian! so go to hell i dont want to see or hear from u guys ever again..